delayed date/newbie

Relax, Columbus!
Dave & I didn't get together right after my last post. I slept horribly that Sat night, up many times, and having ridiculously horrible dreams/nightmares when I did sleep. Woke up with headache, upset tummy & exhausted. Called Dave in plenty of time to let him know I'd need to raincheck. He was relieved to hear that since he was still in bed, fighting the beginnings of a cold.   We postponed.
He called on Fri to see if I had plans for Sat.  You could say so - I was booked from 6 am till late into the night.  I invited him to the last stop on my route -- a CD Release Party for a friend of mine. She's been up in Ohio producing her latest CD, but wanted to have the release party here because of all the support she had when she lived here for a few years ago.  I was definitely going, so I invited Dave.  We had fun. She has an awesome voice that just kicks your ears in their ass. I mean, she can do Janis and Heart better than they can!!  And she has SUCH a way with the crowd - man, can she work us - I don't know many people who can get a bar full of rockers to enthusiastically belt out "King Of The Road" at the top of their lungs!  She can!
There wasn't much talking with all the music & bar activity, but we both enjoyed ourselves. More kissing when he dropped me off. Getting better. He needed to get up early so he left soon, which was fine with me. I drank too much & was so ready to crash. What a lightweight I've become. 6 beers & I felt it all day Sunday. Wimp.

I've been in touch with another guy, Brian. He called last week after what seemed like a bunch of false starts (he travels a lot, so there were big gaps in our communication).  Screw "The Rules" - on our first conversation we talked for an hour & a half. Without pauses. With lots of laughs. With lots of interesting stuff.   Today I got an email - he's going to call me tonight & we're going to discuss lunch plans. Cool. I look forward to meeting him.

And there's this little voice I hear, asking me if it's okay to have lunch with Brian when I've been dating Dave. The little voice kind of annoys me. Dave & I have had no discussion about being exclusive. We haven't been intimate - only kissing. It's fine with me at this point if Dave is dating other women (which is kinda stupid to even say, because there's no basis for it being fine or NOT being fine with me at this stage). I know that little voice. It always knows what buttons it can push. These days I'm paying attention & it doesn't get far. Just look at how it will find any little crack in my armour of peace to try to worm its way in. Funny little wormy voice. Go home. Guilt might pay some short visits here, but doesn't live here any more. Get over yourself.

So far, I see that Dave & Brian have strong similarities, and very apparent differences. I embrace getting to know both of them better as part of my journey. Getting to know them better & getting to know myself better are happening at the same time. Nice to be awake in this life, and observant. And participating again!