Nearly the end of May! wow!
I don't actually know what that means, but something about realizing it makes me think it could be significant. or not.
Dating has taken a sudden back seat to my new project - "Amazing Journey to A Way Cool Job!" subtitled How to Stay Positive & Smiling When Almost Everyone Keeps Telling You How Hard it is to Find a Job These Days. Let's see - "working against me," in order, is 1) the economy 2) kids looking for summer jobs 3) my age. I saw an ad in the paper that AARP has support for "mature workers" and decided to call since I'm just barely AARP-able. I felt better when they said they assist "older workers," defined as 40 & older!! So, HAH to those of you smiling who are younger, but approaching!!
I just had a huge deja vu writing this. hunh. maybe that's significant. or not.
No job yet, but meeting some very nice & interesting people. It's intriguing to see how leads come to me & thru whom. I'm approaching my hunt as an investigation, never knowing what will turn up. At an interview yesterday I was told that my qualifications were more in line for being her boss than working for her. Hey, I'm a single mom to my cat & bird who expect me to put a roof over their heads & food in their bowls! They don't care how I get the money! :)
Anyway, BULLY to all the nay-sayers and energy suckers. Once again, I am finding that what I bring to the table of my life has the most to do with what I'm served. Have I had a few moments of sheer panic & terror? yep. The longest I've been unemployed in my entire adult life was 1 week and that was by choice. When I acknowledge my fears, then shift my energy & thoughts to the next step to take, toss my head back, smile and truly engage with the people & world in front of me, something wonderful happens. I feel my strength & confidence surge and the fears become fading details.
Hey, wait, this is a DATING blog! And I have a wonderful new friend whose comments you've undoubtedly read, whose question of the day is whether I let my dates in on this blogging activity. HELL, NO, DUDE! It has crossed my mind that when I meet someone special who really "gets" me & my nutso humor, that he might find it amusing in hindsight. or not. As to the self-monitoring..... I write the truth, from a hopefully fun/funny standpoint, and with no meanness intended. ....Hey, wait...... are you really asking if I'm withholding information about my sexual liaisons?? HELL, NO, DUDE! Trust me, the next great or awful kiss -- I'm telling! When I get laid - I'm telling! (Not with last names or addresses, of course! unless it's really awful!) just kidding!!!
So, hey, now get this, Dog, check it out (quick, who am I?)..... Last week I had a 2nd date with Dave. Thai lunch. yummy for my tummy. I like him. He's interesting. He's more reserved than I am in some ways, yet wilder in others. I don't know him very well, I admit. He's not one for talking on the phone. He can't make this coming Pred game, but asked for a raincheck for the next one. You got it, Dave-O! We are gonna have a freakin' blast!! :)
I like that this is moving very slow. I like getting to know him.
I mostly like that I am so completely comfortable being ME around him. We're building a nice energy space.
More later, kids! Lotsa love!
After a bit of a lull, I had a coffee date with Dave. It's the best date I've had so far! A few moments of minor anxiety, once again going thru the adjustment period of having a 3-D person in front of me who I only knew by emails. With a cup of Americano in hand, by the time my ass was in the chair 2 minutes, I was already feeling very relaxed and comfortable with Dave. The conversation flowed (pretty evenly, I might add!), we laughed easily, and even found that a social acquaintance of mine has been his friend since the 70's!! And yet we may have never met if it weren't for eharmony! HEY! Don't go envisioning any commercials based on this!
I was incredibly more comfortable on my 1st date with Dave than I was with Mick after 2 dates and hours on the phone. So I invited him to the Preds game this Friday with complete confidence. He already had plans, with our mutual friend, actually. I was disappointed, only because I knew already we would both have so much fun. He suggested Thai food next week. Now, I have a permanent 'hard-on' for Thai food. What can I say...4 years living in that paradise just never leaves your blood! We have plans for a 2nd date before the 1st one is over. Cool. And I'm not all a-flutter, just real comfortable & looking forward to getting to know him better. ( I'm not sure if a-flutter is a good thing at this point of my life - I actually think it would be a huge warning!)
Being open, I did drop my latest news on him. Yep, I'm suddenly unemployed. This doesn't seem to bother him, and he actually promises to send me links to good job sites he's found. (and he DOES! another point!) Lessee, a man could react to an unemployed woman by 1) thinking she's looking for a sugardaddy and run like hell, 2) ride in on his white horse & rescue her with all the bondage or babying aftermath that entails, or 3) offer advice/support/info, be nonplussed, and maintain proper boundaries. YES! #3 wins! And that is what Dave does. (well, holy shit, OF COURSE he does!! since I am a more stable, emotionally healthy person, that is what I'm going to attract!! DUH!! TYG!!)
I leave the date, drive up A1A to see a classic car show (OMIGOD, what eye candy - Camaros, Fairlanes, Mustangs, Barracudas, Chevelles, Bel Airs, droooooooling.....where's my bib.....), then home to watch my Preds playing in Kansas City (incredible game, and we end up barely winning, again. no wonder we call them "the heart attack kids!").
I do have a damn fine life! :)
